And another day...

And another day...

Sooky's post makes me oh-so-emo. Its the stuff I used to think bout. And still do.

And every living moment just reminds me of that even more. Having to take my convo mag profile photo (I miss the old chinadoll-fairskin joanne. dang u oh-mighty-sun :( )

I dislike transitions/ changes that involves leaving. Leaving of the people close to me, and leaving the people I love :'(

I will not go on. Why put so much emphasis of something thats gonna come anyway? I shall savour every moment now. And try my best not to go emo.


On another note, "broke" into my new running shoes again. Ran 3 rounds nonstop, walked 1 round then another 3 nonstop. Not sure whats the distance tho, BK3 park the jogging track has no distance written to it. Somehow tho it seems as if I din't run - din't perspire like crazy (shirt was nearly dry), no muscle cramp/aches, dont feel more tired than I usually am.

...I must have ran in my dream.

Afterthoughts

Afterthoughts

I need a new pair of running shoes, now that my current pair gave way. 

"Great" timing I would say, (3rd run only!!) but it was bought back in 2004. So it has been pretty long...

And I finally found something just as stress relieving as playing the black and white keys. Albeit one that gives you muscle cramps later :P All part and parcel of running...

2k nonstop yesterday! Geez, this "record" is gonna be hard to maintain...on the road somemore?! :O 

haha. but the pressing question is...

...How to get shoes by next Tuesday?! I wanna go run again! :O

Run 2 - Say no to Tasers :/

Run 2 - Say no to Tasers :/

Co13ra's u guys ffk me! lol... left me to run 4 k...again. :O

Today's run was definitely more challenging than the last. Both physically but more mentally. Was running with 101 thoughts running through my head. Control breathing, land on toes first(still gotta work on it) , are we there yet (at the end)...etc

There are some things I will never be able to properly express or let people know. Especially the things deep deep down in my heart. Involving many issues that I can never keep a straight and composed face with when I speak of it. Some stuff that only few know.

But I shall stop there. I promise myself that I shall try harder next time. Today was not too bad, although admittedly I could still have pushed myself a little more and not stop every few steps. But it would definitely help if my abdomen gave me less pain :/

My mind is thinking back of the run in the face of the sun (There goes my goal of staying out of the sun :/), the times I reach a bend (or slopes!!), doing all the warm up exercises (which actually hurt ok!!!) with one funny one named "Superman" (and getting teased by JJ!!!) and more...but funnily,I gotta say like I said to Sandip today - that I actually enjoy running. Its...funny actually.

On another note, it seems like I got a goal / target - to finish 10k nonstop by end of sem 5/before the pms batch leaves Malaysia. Shall see whether its actually achievable...it still remains to be seen.

And...I'm actually considering opening a "runs" label. Since its my second post. And I actually forsee more to come. haha. So welcome to the "Runs" post :)

And as for the slightly sore leg muscles and the sweat and the tough exercises...I would do it all over again. Chui Ling (I know you're not reading this) you're supposed to join me next Tuesday right!

The Run

The Run

Miley Cyrus has the climb. I never climbed in my life before...but today I went on a run.

Just in case you were wondering , no, Joanne (practically) never ran...until today. I tell you, I caused many MANY MANY raised eyebrows today. Even when someone heard I'm going running ,they're like... ... "JOANNE????" Hahaha. I can name the people. SC, JJ, NN, and more!

There are many many reasons why I don't run. Not many know why. But lets just safely say I had no stamina/ willpower. I'm serious - I cant even see the end. And when I see the end, it seems so far away - as if its not worth it to run all the way there. And many times today I felt like the same.

So to get a friend's signature for my orientation group last week, (I sorta regret pitying them and "taking the fall" myself haha) I agreed to run 2km. Which is crazy. Considering so many have tried, and failed to make me run. (jog even). But I'm someone who keeps her word as much as she can. If she promises...then yes she WILL run despite her saying she will never.

Firstly, she searched out her sit-on-the-rack comfortably-never-wear-shoes.

And then it had to begin right?.. funnily at 4.40pm, it started drizzling. Some told me that "God saved you". but I felt differently. It would only mean postponing the run, and I already brought my stuff! I prayed that the rain would stop, that it wouldn't be too hot. ><

We started out from IMU. thanks to the few who supported me along - Ming Yao, Yeeling and Sze Jun. Thanks for physically being there to run with me! and not ditching me along the way! And you too Sze Jun in slippers! haha. And of course, not forgetting my friend Sandip (whose signature our group was after) , Kyan and even Jae Ric. You guys were pushing me till the very end. I would have walked all the way if not for all of yr support.

And yes...the run was as grueling as I thought it would be. I cant even count the many times I felt like just stopping but was pushed and pushed; the way it seemed like the run will never end; the feeling that stopping this crazy run would be better than going all the way; the running on the road which is like one of my biggest phobia's since the year before, the serious excruciating pain in my lower left abdomen not 500 m into the run(which is why i always stop and never finish the race) that funnily went away after maybe 1k or so...and more. It was a huge challenge for me.

But anyway, at the end, Sandip told me (actually not t0 my horror...I had a feeling that he would do that, din't really think it came true) that we had done twice the distance - 4km. 3.8km to be exact, but seriously, twice the distance. (I think I was , and still am wee bit tired to be mad at him for lying bout the distance. haha) I think I'm gonna get muscle cramps tomorrow onwards =.= I was practically swaying after finishing the run, so unstable I was..

To be entirely honest, I'm not entirely proud of myself. I gave up more than half the time. As in I rather walk not run. ( But they pushed me la...If not I would never have finished it). And the slopes uphill! Omg!!! But I genuinely felt like I couldn't do it already. And on my own , I really would give up. (its true!!) And...if not for the whole process of "I feel like dying la...cant run d, can I stop please?? (while running)"... I would run all over again :) Just...make it Tuesday can anot? :) *I know I'm crazy...I'll start moaning again when I start running*

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On another note, (I'm writing this coz I can never verbalize it in words) the main reason I din't practice today is coz I was shy( I can't believe I'm using this word, but its true. Even among my friends, I always make them do it while I watch.) So...yeah. thats the biggest reason why. And now you know ><

and...I got pbl to do tonight :O