Wednesday, April 14, 2010

A whole load of jumbled up stuff

A whole load of jumbled up stuff 

Am feeling so dead tired at the moment. Nervous system is seriously sucking the life outa me. Not that I don't find it interesting...I do. but the lectures are all so so dense. On top of that, I'm 5 weeks to summatives and I'm not even touching MSK. Still got +- 8 notes in GI and renal just started off very slowly. I 'm NOT thrilled. 

Today I officially was relieved of my duties from Hydra House as its first secretary along with another super responsible and enthusiastic friend, Sook Yee. I'm glad that both of us managed to carry out our jobs well (I hope , at least). It was quite a bit of work initially, admittedly. And during the house cup, I had darts to worry about, and it took up a HUGE chunk of my time. I highly doubt I'll be doing it if I were in semester 5. I wish the new committee nothing but the best. But from the looks of it, it should be a good team and a good year ahead for Hydra. 

Hospital visit yesterday was...ok I guess. We met a patient with A HOST of problems. Its like whatever we ask he'll have positive "signs" (this pain that pain). but he was 81 years old, and an active sportsmen. When we asked him to bend down and touch his toes (as part of the Physical examination of the spine) , he said "1, 2, 3,4, 5, 6 you all challenge me? " in a joking tone...and bent down ALL THE WAY to touch the ground with ease. LEGS STRAIGHT. we were stunned. Later on when we tried ourselves we were not able to do it, and on top of that, was complaining of pain :P shame on us young people? 

At the same time, it was the 2nd time this semester going for hospital visit and having to stand for long hours. I really don't know how I'm to survive clinical school, especially the long hours standing and the early hours waking and late hours sleeping. Beats me. I often wonder how people do it...

And time and again I'm reminded by various things on how little time I have left in IMU BJ. Random friends status updates; the relieving of duties from the house; seeing my semester 1 juniors starting to study and semester 2 and 3 juniors studying hard...Many many things just trigger this thought and I can't help but sink into a basin of pensiveness. At least for a while. How have I done? Have I made a fool of myself? Have I hurt  more other's feelings more than I have made another happy? 

No one is indispensable, that I know. I don't expect people to remember me once I've left, but if there's one thing I hope I did, I hope I made someone feel that they are loved, no strings attached. I hope I did something that cheered up someone's day. I hope I was never stingy with hugs or time for any other friend. I hope I gave them reason to see why they are beautiful , special ,and one of a kind.

I am falling asleep. As usual , I sleep way before I want to. Today was not so productive. Tomorrow got pbl (research not done yet), and going for a run. That I'm looking forward to somehow. 

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

It pains me to see you this way

It pains me to see you this way

...It does. Because I understand. Somehow I do understand beneath the iron-face mask (albeit now with a dent), is a person wanting love and care just like the rest of the people on the streets. But for the promises we make...And I for one am a person who keeps her promises, so I understand the magnitude of the burden you're carrying. 

But you're never alone. There are us who will always wait for you, with our arms wide; lame jokes ready, "pot of gold" waiting. :) 

Monday, April 5, 2010

Hugs :)

Hugs :)

I had wanted to blog for a few days already, but somehow din't manage to get down to it. Procrastination, report, notes, surfing the get the hang of it :/

Tomorrow going running again. 4km. at least 6 people are running. Since I din't run last week, I hope I din't "lost steam" and stop running...Hahaha.

Was really really stressed out last week. Report took up a week by itself (to realize later it was worth only 1%...not worth it! >< ) ; studies were sidelined, there was much to do, nothing was settled... 

Even now there is still some stuff to be settled. Of course, prom stuff (Prom coming up this Saturday)...and Official House Meeting to be done next week, and of course top on the list is studies... I think I'm missing out something tho :/

On a "cute" note, Co13ra gurls had its "tie day". Although my tie not that obvious :P
Who said only men can wear ties and look nice in it? :D
Chui ling (master planner), SiewSee (Big mama), Shin yi (love expert), Fida (super hot beautiful :P), Yeeling (yeeling+ jit tong = yee thong)

Today, Fida, SiewSee and I went shopping for my prom shoes. What would I do without those 2 girls. :'). You guys make me feel so... I dunno la :P I wouldn't care so much bout prom if not for you girls ;) And I really appreciate it =)

 Fida :) She was trying to hide from the picture :P Not so simple la my dear

Big Mama! Tom yam soup. Cilli padi. ssssssssss JINN HOT! (in jit tong's words. :P) 

This was my BBQ bucket chicken rice. It was pretty ok =) (then again, IMU food sucks. So this is like way way WAY  better)

Up close. It came with ice lemon tea + 2 thin slices of watermelon too

CILLI PEDAS!!! Hahaha, I was amazed at the way SiewSee could still keep a straight face and talk and all when she terkena cili padi. SALUTE! :)

It was overall a fun trip. But I wish we din't have time constraints...then I could have let loose much more. But I really appreciated their company. Most importantly...I FOUND MY SHOES!!! hahaha :) :) :)


Now, you might ask me why I entitled this post as hugs. Or maybe u won't :P

I remember during super viva, one of the questions posed were if you only had a day left on earth , what would you do? I replied that I wanna meet all the people that I sayang, from in the country and afar, and give them a big hug and tell them how much they meant to me and how much they have made the world a better place just by being in it. 

And before I leave the library everyday(nearly everyday), I try to give the people around me hugs :) Nothing big /expensive. Just a lil something to tell them I love them and care for them, and that they mean the world to me. 

These days, they(some of them) see me and go: "free hugs". hahaha. They'll come up to me and give me a hug when they see me (or even when they leave or I move to leave). And the last week, when I least felt like hugging people, I think its one of the things that kept me sane in the chaos - the hugs they freely offered. And I don't know why =)

ps: I don't even know if anyone reads this place anymore :( make some noise yo - leave a comment or something.