Friday, February 27, 2009

These Days

These few days orientation fever has been high, and I kinda (horrifyingly) "abandoned" my studies. need to get back. my reading is grossly incomplete, and I don't wanna do badly for the upcoming test.

Still, I feel happy getting to know people. Despite not thinking of OO-ing, I guess I also ended up as seXIest's (sorta permanent) OO. I hope I've done a good job. I think the sem 2's are way better than me.

Still thinking. And a few people mentioned I looked tired , drained yesterday when I din't feel it. I felt mentally well. This moment, as I'm typing this, I feel different. I feel drained, mentally and physically. Couldn't get up just now during the viva, and was exceptionally quiet. (considering myself). Din eat the whole day. The food lover feeling full, not hungry. Kinda rare actually. So yeah, my favourite mutton and chicken curry doesn't seem appealing to me. At all.

Monday. Dress code. Juniors seem to be really blur. and I mean really. Group x called me to brief them. My other collegues already briefed them...? Ahh nevermind.

I'm skipping treasure hunt tonight and tomorrow. I feel like puking , and am really unfit to help. Hope I don't pass out or something.

In another note, I'm kinda touched by a little gesture by an unknown stranger. I asked my friend for a stapler and she don't have it. A girl in sporty wear just came up and passed me a stapler. Before I could return it to her, she was gone. I still dunno who she was. Hope I'll find out.

Things to do:
clear my room? at least the table
pbl. I really wanna try.
study.I'm way back. Somebody save me.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Close and open

I guess it was a good closure. I don't know if I "finished the race" well, but I know I did try all the way. I did put in my all when I could. Letting go was a decision made based on faith and advice from someone I love and cherish. It was not a straight no u-turn decision, perhaps. But I gave it much thought, I know that some things, like changes, doesnt need specific people with power to do it. It matters not that one is in the background, forming, building the spine of the body...for what is a body without its backbone?

The last few weeks were a mixture of everything - shock, reluctance, sadness, bittersweet, sour feelings... and draining, thought provoking. It was definitely a learning experience( it always is right) and I hope I've come out wiser. Listening to points brought up today, I can't help but feel amazed and in awe of the wisdom and maturity of my peers and collegues... truly, you guys were not chosen by mistake. It just can't be. And I know that the jobs and the many tasks will be done with much excellence and to the pride of not just the ones who tread the surface of this earth.

Nevertheless, there was a sense of sadness as I stepped out today. A sense...of finality? But deep inside, along with the sense of bittersweetness, was a little small voice (hopefully not my own) that assures me this is not just "another decision". It was one that took into account other things - overall , the need, people... And now, as someone said, a new journey. Whatever is ahead. I'll do my best.

to you and you:
PS:I know it won't be easy. Probably you'll never read this, but know that you were chosen (ground zero...=P ) and I know its a choice well made. I know you'll serve and perform well. Not your strength alone, remember? Whatever comes your way, your cool and whatever is placed within you will be enough to handle the "thorn". Tears are precious too! Hmm...what can I say... maybe... watching your back? haha. just remember you can do it, its all inside you. You have genes transcribed from the most high. The impossible is nothing!

in a pensive mood,
signing out.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

STRESS is building up.

I need a breather ):

Monday, February 23, 2009



Its Bigger! Its better! MEDT109 Orientation committee has toiled, and now brings you...


And its starting...tomorrow! *squeals*

I'm excited.:) ( my orientation shirt is too big tho, but I can't change it as my name is on it. owh well)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Dear Elvyna


To the one beautiful inside AND out ,
The pweety one in green^^

I wanted to send you this:

But decided that this will do instead. You rawk girl! Love ya lots! hehe *Hugs*


Wednesday, February 18, 2009



I heard from my brother who heard from his esl (english second language) teacher. Apparently its real (I dint Google it tho). It goes like this:

The world's shortest essay writing competition. Needs to include religion, royalty, sex and mystery.

And the winning essay:

"My God", said the Queen, "I'm pregnant and I don't know who the father is!"

He won a scholarship to Harvard.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Live Love Laugh

LIVE LOVE LAUGHRemedy to having a healthy and carefree life - Live Love Laugh. :)
I like this picture :) hehe



hahaha,yesterday was a foody foody day. Started the day with bread and ham... (mum din't cook hehe) which i consider western / chinese food.

and so, lunch i bought indian food... mutton and all. muakaka

for dinner, mom brought back my facourite malay food. roti jala, nasi briyani / minyak, etc etc. hehe

Then...went to Le Meridian hotel. Accompanied dad for a conference (no pictures. I'm camera shy). and for "dinner" (2nd dinner lol...) there was middle eastern food. roti naan lookalike(not sure if it is), mutton pizza, fish, kebab chicken, beef, soup, desserts etc...I was so so saturated in the end. I'll make a very bad oil :/ (used unsaturated oil is the best what right? ) Owh tried out rice pudding for the first time. Always wanted to try as its been mentioned in the books I used to read when I was young. Quite nice actually :)

CNY just past...and with the amount I'm eating... hehehe. Now I believe why people say "I live to eat, not eat to live". We've "evolved"so much.

Food makes me happy. i think.lols

20 days to 2st summative of the year...gotta buck up. need support people! haha

signing out

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Little Shoutout

Little Shoutout

Dear God, thank You for the strength to go through the day without getting tired at the wrong time. Thank You for sustaining me through clinic visit, 2 hr lecture without sleeping (or even feeling sleepy) an pbl(even helping me to absorb). You're amazing. :)

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth

Monday, February 9, 2009


Happy Valentine's baby :) (Its Chap Goh Mei, Chinese Valentines ^^)
Love u :P

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


you probably might wanna think thrice and think again before reading this absolutely rant filled post.

I'm having frequent stomachaches. Wonder whats up. Makes me cranky.

I think I'm beginning to hate myself. I feel, after how I interacted with people today, that I probably would make the worst boss with the worst communication skills. And fussy. And picky.

I thought I saw someone who isn't the right person. Crazy.

Getting paranoid. when a car/motor passes me, my mind comes up with 101 ways they are out to incapacitate me.

I feel lonely. Really lonely.

I just feel so grouchy right now. Probably I'll take this down when I feel better.