Monday, March 31, 2008

Random stuff, thoughts, etc.

Setting: toilet / outside the toilet
dad:who's inside?
me: me! me-e-e! (spells out loud)
dad: ok then, curry up!
(seriously, its cool wei)

Asked myself, what is love? how to define love(in layman terms)
for me, when you are able to think of that someone even when you're crying, and still smile through your tears; and when you think of that someone and life gives me, that is love. :D

I know I know. My blog theme is pink.
Yeah yeah yeah...I know. the blog is PINK. VERY surprising, especially that it comes from the least likely I see some rolling eyes, some open mouths, some incredulous looks....
But then no other colour suits the whole ideal one would be blue but it doesn't work, even pastel and some other colours have rendered unusable results... My picture fits tho, the shirt is pink *looks hopeful
(Come on Joanne you expect that to pacify them?!?!)

So many people ask me: How is uni?
um...too early to tell. still adapting. but its fine. need to work out my studying and all though...a little backwards :s

Malaysian drivers(some of them) are not civilised.
I'm sorry, its not a general statement. Not meant to be. But some Malaysian drivers have absolutely no manners, some have no respect, or even the slightest regard for beings that share the road with them. We all wanna get home fast, and we understand the frusration when caught in a jam...but doesn't that make the people who wait patiently(and not so patiently,but still stay in line) look foolish? Kudos to those who are the majority, who wait in line despite the jam being so horrendously horrendous. Some say: First world facilities, third world mentalities. Maybe, just maybe, its true...unless we do soething to improve ourselves.

We take things for granted. Way too much.
Had a bad headache the last few days...head pounding and basically, its not nice. not comfortable at all...funtional, but then...
We take things so much for granted until something jolts us to our senses. Like mine, realised how much i valued my health only when my head started to give me warning signs. Realized I need to pay serious attention to my health and not brush it of as a trivial and insgnificant come-what-may matter. For some,may be people around you...and you never fully realize how much they mean to you till one party has to leave/ is gone,forever.
I dun wanna live life with regrets. Too heavy a burden to carry.

There's so much I'm thinking...but some things are just unexplainable. Too unexplainable. Too much thoughts, I think I need a worlds's equivalent of a pensive..or perhaps borrow Dumbledore's. Anyone has one? :D

Friday, March 28, 2008


I do usually read the newspaper. and to say that the world is "evolving"... i dunno.

the nst newspaper today had a report on a man(in hawaii i think) being 5 months pregnant. fine, he wasnt a man to begin with, had a sex change, from a women now a man...married to a women. and because he/she did not remove the uterus, he/she claims to have given himself a sperm(lazy to elaborate) and is now 5 months expecting a daughter. the truth of the matter is still disputable. i dunno if you call this sick...its just...unnatural. highly unnatural.

thenthere was this article. i was like, nearly crying (ok i did) when i read the article. in texas, a guy was so angry that he was in a loveless marriage that the tortured his daughter...he put his(then 2 month old) daughter in a hotel safe, then put her in a refrigerator...the he put he in a microwave oven and turned it on for 20 seconds. as a result, the daughter suffered 2nd and 3rd degree burns on various parts on her body, required 2 skin grafts, an her left ear (part of it) had to be amputated. he claimed that he was insane when he done that, but the claim was thrown out. today he was sentenced to 25 years in prison, and when he heard it "he was tearing". but to be honest, i dont pity him. he deserves it. his daughter's wound still needs to be cleaned each day...and imagine the pain she has to go tru till she screams each time. some people are just sick. sick. i dunno even what to say.

then there was the opinion part in the newspaper where someone said that "medical schools are mushrooming in malaysia...not quality controlled...if not controlled, esp the quality, malaysia would soon have an influx of doctors like in india, pakistan and myanmar where doctors are forced to find jobs abroad". and i feel its true, and scary. the thing offence, but some of my lecturers in uni is also myanmarists and indian and all(oh they are good la, most of them)...its like, even in medicine the job isnt secured next time? gosh...

i feel that the world is pretty scary. it just is. anything can happen. its like...whats happening tomorrow is totally unpredictable. sigh.

but i guess thats why, all the more I've got to trust in God, and know that He will see me through. And to remember His faithfulness...He has never let us down, and He wont.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Random stuff

Its gonna be short. I hope.

1. The only thing ongoing is change. The world is changing. The country is changing. People are changing. And so am I. and I hope, for the better.

2. Orientation was fun. Fun! No regrets going ,tho some part of me feels that things could have been a weee bit more organized.

3. Time and tide waits for no man. (and woman) here I am, siting after using the computer for the whole day...facebook, editing the template (coz mostly Sook Cheng did it), and the other stuffs - cooking, reading the no-news-daily paper...

4. Found out that semester 2 onwards, the timetable is much more than my current nice timetable. Not sure if I like that.

5. I kinda like my new blogskin. Its bright, with the theme of rainbows and hope. reminds me that no matter how heavy the rain is, there will be the beautiful rainbow to look forward to.

need go dinner.


Yea!!! Yay!!! I've got a new blog skin, after like waiting so long! (since the time i started my blog).
And I've got a number of prople to thank for it.

1. Miss Chin Sook Cheng - haha, Sook Cheng. The reason my template is FINALLY FINALLY up. Thank you for bearing with me, my all tak-tahu-ness which (most probably)have made you utterly frusrated.
Now you know how bad I am with technology. =(

2. My bro.He fine tuned the details. The archives, taught me abit how to edit the profile, for I knew naughts. At least I know a wee bit now *brightens up.

Not forgetting, To the creator (Serena, the name given in blogskins) and master designer of the beautiful template I'm now using. My highest regards. You are a talented,talented person.


Oh, and people, If you can spare your time. Only if you can...leave yr comments...chatbox, comment, etc. Whatever. I'll appreciate a little bit of feedback( not that I'm gonna do any drastic changes anymore.)

This is a happy day. Cheers! :)

Monday, March 17, 2008

The medical Profession

And people wonder why we choose the medical profession.

Honestly, I myself don't know. :p


Tagged...and shall i bold it? TAGGED by Wei Ning AND Michelle. Now you both can stop arguing :)

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- age range of 25-28

2. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
-Erm, Nicholas Chew ( OK, ok i know he only has ONE post on frenster blog...but it counts, no? )...why? its self explanatory(for those who know me)
- Rachel Eng. why arrr...coz we shared so much,sure she does not mind "tagging along" to the deserted island :D
- Chee Kin (of all people huh...)he'll probably cheer me up...?!?
Then again,why should I be limited to only 3? I want to bring the rest along, bloggers,Wei Ning, Mun Wah, Sze Ming, Steph Lee,Sabrina Ong...and even non bloggers...Sarah Wong, Daniel Lau,etc etc etc...basically everyone lah!!!

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
-hmmm...i'm contented with where I am at the moment *fill in the blanks later

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- I'll think of it when I actually get the wish, the magic wish etc...

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- unless you're william butler yeats (refer to form 1 literature book, "lake isle of innisfree"(forgot the spelling already) ), no. remember? money makes the world go square. (nah j kidding, round...)

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
-hmmm...nothing on my list. I love who/what i love to bits - my family, frenz, my darling, etc... but heard the saying before, that "if you love them, set them free?" what i'm trying to say is, I love them enough to not be afraid of losing them... (ok i know it sounds gibberish)

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- refer to number 4 - I'll cross the bridge when i come to it. but IF i had, i definitely would set aside some for my current education...and this will definitely lessen my parents burden. then ar...invest, save,etc... and not forgetting before all else, tithing.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- I'm still conservative. As a gurl, I still wait for the guy to "confess". ok la, maybe give hints "a little" *grins
oh,oh, and confess DOES NOT MEAN handphone message...I'll kick the fella! (sorry la,but that is so 1. insensitive...not face to face, 2. not even yr own handwriting, must use technology to replace...)

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Smarty pants (skirt maybe? ) , social butterfly,,acting...the list goes on (i agree with you wei ning...why am i limited to only 3?!? )

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- oh, I dedicated a post to this topic, "My Ideal guy" (refer to the sidebar )

11. Current thoughts
-my blog never seems to have comments. no matter,its for fun anyway *smiles sadly.

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
- Well, if im gonna be the same me, whats the point? but yeah...maybe.

13. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
- erm...sometimes first impressions go a loooong way, tho we are technically not supposed to judge a book by its cover...

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- hmm...Thing, you say? the stuff that embeds memories, like cards, my soft toys...snuggle(my big bear size bear =D )

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
- more of a window shopper...observing and noting down prices and all, more than buying :)

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- the procrastinating nature. never mind, I'll start tomorrow. :D

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
- my bestest friends,pals, buddies...

18. What's your weakest point?
-Not revealing that to you

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?
- erm...I'm most proud of the people (technically not a thing) around me, my family, frenz and darling,who never fail to look forward, persevere, and soldier ahead despite so many trials and trying times :) I love you all!

20. How would you describe your siblings?
-1st one, Smart;2nd 1, Caring

Oh,I lazy to tag people la :D


Sometimes, Lord,
when they say
i haven't come as far
as i should have
since meeting You,
i stop and wonder
if that's how You feel too

and i wonder
if You're disappointed
in me
and maybe You wish
You hadn't ask me
to follow You at all

But, Lord, i know this isn't true,
because even as i fall
in exhaustion from trying to run
ahead of You,
You're always there
to let me rest my head on Your shoulder
until i can walk again.
i know You're always with me, Lord.
even though they can't see You.

by Debbie Kendrick

Thanks to my dearest siz in Australia who reminded me that He never stops loving us, He never stops watching over us; He never stops wanting to be with us, He never gives up on us...and
He's always there to catch us when we fall. always there for us to cry to...

Transition has never been easy for me...and adapting has never been my forte. Still, I'm trying. Maybe I just need some time...

ps: Thanks to my totally AWESOME sampah group mates, OO's and all who made orientation something for me to remember. You guys totally ROCK! Thanks to those who "took care" of me, esp when i needed it alot, who took the time to just ask me if im ok... and to those who think im dont know my frenz...hehehe... im not lame...i'm still mild ok...

our Prince of the wild (Who won 1st place as a swan (prince) AND best costume awards) ,
Jeremy Josph aka jumper Lingam (don't ask me why),


Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I...

Monday, March 10, 2008

To my orientation mates

hey Group 3 aka Sampah,

To me, you guys rock big time. O.O's included, Izzat, K-Man, Zhi Yen... And my leaders , Dhina, Alex...and everyone else... Sook Cheng, Jac Ric, Pei San, Husna, Akmal, Boon, David, King, Jeremy, Ashmin, Natashini, (I know I missed out a name, I 'm sorry I cant think of it at the moment), you guys have the enthusiasm and passion that really puts me to shame...

I'm sorry that you guys had to accommodate me, esp all the "early curfews" and stuffs... thanks for understanding. i'm sorry if i blabbered a lot or talked a lot of nonsense, my sincere apologies if i made any of you irritated or offended. and thanks so much for just understanding. it means a lot to me.

rock on people...we still got 1 week to go! (although i doubt that any of you are actually looking at this post even) we are the SAMPAH team, and we will tah-pao the rest of the teams!

Sampah, sampah, sampah sampah sampah... (Group cheer)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

The power to make HIM smile

i guess since i have been in uni, the busyness of life has pretty much "caught up" on me, including the stress and all. it seems that alot will say (i thought i would too) "thank you God,iv served you all my life, now is my time to sit back n study, so that i would do well. s u noe, uni is competitive..."

and amidst all the stress-pimples-bla and assignments-lectures-orientation, i felt that i just am missing somethings....the good times with God, the sweet fellowship with my cf(high school and college), buddies and all....its not something "awesome", coming to uni without God. and time and again i find myself telling God, i can do it without you, but i want to do it with you. perhaps You make it easier, perhaps not...but i want to do it to bring joy to You, the smile on Your face, the least I could do...

and yes, i thought that my praise, the "thank you lord's" which i say pretty often are "redundant". like, yeah, God, you did it,thank you; i dint know that grateful "thank you" means so much to Him. i dint know that i had the power to make Him smile.

if you have time,read the devotion article by Charles Spurgeon,which made me think again.

Psalm 45:8Whereby they have made Thee glad.
And who are thus privileged to make the Saviour glad? His church-His people. But is it possible? He makes us glad, but how can we make Him glad? By our love. Ah! we think it so cold, so faint; and so, indeed, we must sorrowfully confess it to be, but it is very sweet to Christ. Hear His own eulogy of that love in the golden Canticle: "How fair is thy love, my sister, my spouse! how much better is thy love than wine!" See, loving heart, how He delights in you. When you lean your head on His bosom, you not only receive, but you give Him joy; when you gaze with love upon His all-glorious face, you not only obtain comfort, but impart delight. Our praise, too gives Him joy-not the song of the lips alone, but the melody of the heart's deep gratitude. Our gifts, too, are very pleasant to Him; He loves to see us lay our time, our talents, our substance upon the altar, not for the value of what we give, but for the sake of the motive from which the gift springs. To Him the lowly offerings of His saints are more acceptable than the thousands of gold and silver. Holiness is like frankincense and myrrh to Him. Forgive your enemy, and you make Christ glad; distribute of your substance to the poor, and He rejoices; be the means of saving souls, and you give Him to see of the travail of His soul; proclaim His gospel, and you are a sweet savour unto Him; go among the ignorant and lift up the cross, and you have given Him honour. It is in your power even now to break the alabaster box, and pour the precious oil of joy upon His head, as did the woman of old, whose memorial is to this day set forth wherever the gospel is preached. Will you be backward then? Will you not perfume your beloved Lord with the myrrh and aloes, and cassis, of your heart's praise? Yes, ye ivory palaces, ye shall hear the songs of the saints!

Thank You Lord for all you have done and will do in time. I'm sorry that I even had the thought of sitting back and letting others do the work...I dint know it meant so much to You. Thank You for the countless reminders that You will see me through, will walk me through life and uni, that even as I look to You, i can find fullfillment and joy. Thank You for all I family, uni, frenz, life...and not to forget Nicholas...and Your amazing love that has never failed me yet.(and i know,never will) I love You Lord God, and I surrender my all once again. Take me as You will, use me....wherever You may lead, I will go. Thank You for the love that enables me to love others,love my family, Nicholas, You...there is so much more to come,and I believe. I love You God.

Your little girl who loves teddies :)

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

5 points to note in a successful relationship:

"conned" this from evonne(etev)'s notes durin cny gathering. yep,read her devotion notes while in white house kopitiam...see la so boring...(nah jz kidding)

anyway, din't remember all of it, so messaged her at the end of the day again =(. (see la memory so poor).

but hear it is, the 5 points to note in a successful relationship: =)

1. direction - does the relationship have a clear direction? what do you see in 10,maybe 20 years time? you cant just go : "oh i see both of us sipping coffee every evening in the porch..." or " oh we go jogging together loh every evening..." if you do i'll just say, riight... thats a direction...?

2. communication - goes without saying. words, mails, chats, msn, etc. you know, even when sometimes both are silent, but the eyes are looking at each other, its more than words can go. its a(perhaps?) deeper form of wordless communication. =p

3. honesty - i made and will always make it clear with my partner.... honesty at all times, even if at times it may hurt. to me, honesty is the best policy. you may be "hidden" from the truth now, but when you know...its gonna hurt. even more. but yeah i DO keep secrets from my partner and WILL lah...the things like what i get for his birthday and etc...(blek i'm saying it for a purpose....keyword: chocs...=p )

4. accountability - to some who watches over our lives and who cares. eg, parents, leaders, etc. strangers and 3-8 people excluded. and oh, those whose views are of no importance too. =)

5. similar core value - i guess i need not elaborate. coz if core values are of a vast difference....chances are that arguments and fights will result in extreme rifts that may damage a relationship.

and coming to think of it, ALL 5 are important...because (say for example, you're not honest / you've no communication), trust will be hard to build up, suspicions will take place, and alot of undesired misunderstandings are definite implications of the above. so...

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ok, ok, i know i made that up. =) just to make things look a lil more "cheerful" =)

A quick laugh for 5 mins

some of them are really....LAME!!!

: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
: Why?
: There is no future in it.
............ ......... ......... ......... ......... .......... ......... .

: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have?
: $10.
: You don't know maths.
: You don't know my father!
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: David, come here.
: Yes, mum?
: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
: But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am scolding you now.
............ ......... ......... .......... ......... ......... ......... ........

: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
: So?
: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8. If she can't make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?
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A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were
watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of
breaking plates,
then complete silence. The daughter turned to look at her father.

: It's mummy!
: How do you know?
: She didn't say anything.
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Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No, mine is undying love

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Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born

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Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.

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: Simon, your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did u copy his?
: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

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: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
: That's why I say she's no good!

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Teacher: 'Where were u born?'
Student: ' Singapore , Sir.'
Teacher: 'Which part?'
Student: 'All of me, Sir.'
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A teacher was asking her class: 'What is the difference between 'unlawful' and 'illegal'?' Only one hand shot up. 'Ok, answer, Joan' said the teacher.
''unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal' is a sick eagle.'

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Teacher: 'How come you do not comb your hair?'
Ah Kow: 'No comb, Sir.'
Teacher: 'Use your dad's then.'
Ah Kow: 'No hair, Sir.'

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A boy came home from school with his exam results.
'What did u get?' asked his father.
'My marks are under water,' said the boy.
'What do u mean 'under water'?'
'They are all below 'C' (sea) level'