Saturday, October 18, 2008

Carry me

CARRY ME


I just have a whole jumble of emotions in me. Fear, frustration, yet I can truly praise God. for the results of summative 2. I walked out of the exam hall feeling bad, but as the Q n A session proceeded...i could only say thank You God. All glory to You and You alone.


These few days have been a struggle. Counted the number of lectures to go, sem 1 has >1oo lecture notes I have to cover. I struggled to study since yesterday, the progress was close to nil. My fb status kept changing to mirror my frustration, and many beloved batchmates, pbl mates,seniors ( - Ailing, thank you for constantly encouraging me!)...and even senior from manchester, Angie - thanks so much dear! , and friends just commented, just encouraged each other. I think I need to not look too far ahead - take things one step at a time.


And I think dental students are amazing. They are studying twice compared to us - ours and their own dental syllabus. Hard core man.


But all said and done, its 2 weeks to the big test - EOS. I shall not even call it the killer paper...I believe my God is bigger than any paper, any challenge that can come my way. I'm learning to take notes 1 note at a time, to not let fear cloud me or eat me up. Not gonna live a life of fear, even tho the voice reminds me of times I've tried before and failed. Ultimately, just to live a life fully surrendered to God.


You're the God of this paper(eos), You're King of these people, You're the Lord of MeDt, You are.

I always loved sunflowers...its beautiful, its bright, it calls me to look up and see the beautiful sky and the sun...

Carry me
You lead me in to Your courts
Surround me with Your love
I walk with You
I do not fear


In this place
Dreams are made
In this place
Where You are
Carry me here
In Your arms of love
Draw me close to You
I want to be where You are
I want to be where You are


You carry me, You are my strength
I've learnt to trust in You
And once again
I'm reaching out

2 comments:

Ang3 said...

i LOVE sunflowers too...:)
hang in there gurl...
go go go!!

muacks.
will keep u in prayers k..
persevere on..

[J].[L] said...

THANK YOU Angelene! You too...all the best in clinicals @ Manchaster, I know you're enjoying yrself! :) *Hugs*